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Missing My Sole Mate

Today, I spent a lot of time on YouTube playing some of my favorite music, mostly music of the 60s and 70s.

I don’t know why, but I guess that I have had a feeling of melancholy surrounding me for the last month or so. I have received at least four emails, within the last 30 days, telling me that old friends have passed.

Lilliam is in Costa Rica and when she is gone I feel such a void. Natalie is here, but there is never a replacement for one’s sole mate no matter how hard others try.

The emails, Lilliam being away and the music had a dramatic effect on me. Tears streamed down my face and memories flashed through my mind relentlessly.

Beyond the current emails, I began to count other friends that have left all too soon. I doubt if they knew how much they meant to me. Each and everyone left an indelible print on me that will never disappear.

Many of the artists I listened to today occupy another part of my memories. I can hear a song and almost picture where I was and what I was dong when I first heard it.

I think had all of the Peter, Paul, and Mary albums. I was a big fan of the Chad Mitchell Trio. I remember when Chad Mitchell decided to go solo and brought in a unknown replacement by the name of John Denver.

I must have listened to more than 11 hours of YouTube of these artists today.

It seemed that the more I listened the more I was touched by how quickly time passes and how fragile life is. I also realized that the older I get the faster time goes.

As I listened to the music, I picked up my iPad and wrote a poem to remind myself that time is valuable and should not be wasted.

I called it Reminiscing.

A Few Less Marbles

Here it is another July 4th. My how time flies! Like a lot of holidays, it makes me remember times with family, fireworks, picnics etc. and now that I am in Panama it is harder to be with them.

Luckily there is still the Internet and the telephone. Not a replacement for being there in person, but at least they know I am thinking of them.

Several years ago I received an email called “Life Compared to a Thousand Marbles”. I like to repost it every now and then because I think the message it contains is very important.

If you remember it from before, you might still like reading it again as I often do. In the mean time, I think I will go tell Lilliam I love her and appreciate each day we have together. Maybe I can convince her to go out for breakfast.

For the original post, click HERE. Now go have a special day.

Wake Up Calls

A day or so ago, I got one of those notifications that a schoolmate of mine had passed away. Ronnie Goodwin, who was a year ahead of me, but had married one of my classmates. He was the picture of an athlete, when I knew him, and went on to play for the Philadelphia Eagles.

I sent the notice to another classmate of mine and he replied that he didn’t know about me, but he was no longer feeling immortal. Too many of our friends were dropping from the ranks.

After my recent accidents, I know I am no longer feeling invincible.

Then today, I received a request that really made me sad. It was a request to help a person with a task that I can do that will hopefully ease the pain of one who has lost a loved one.

At this time of year, deaths have a much more painful effect on people. Holidays always remind us of those that are no longer with us. For the young, many only focus on the happy things. Dolls, or trains, or iPads or video games or jump ropes.

For those of us that are older, we tend to think of loved ones that are not with us.

So I pose to you the following. As Christmas time is near, try to go out of your way to say a kind word to everyone. Smile at the checkout lady in the supermarket and tell her to have a good day. Que tenga un buen diá

Tip all bag boys. Remember that they are not paid by the supermarket and every cent you give them may mean they can buy a gift for Christmas. Pass out smiles as if they your most valuable possession. For some, it may be the one thing that brightens their day.

If you see someone that needs a helping hand, extend yours.

Life is short. We only pass this way once. Your time here will be more rewarding if everyone around you is happy. Do your part.

Every once in a while I need to remind myself of this. I thought while I was reminding me, I would pass it on to you as well.

Go have a great day. I plan on doing just that.

Time For Reflection

Every now and then, I encounter a situation that causes me to have one of those “What is the meaning of life?” moments.

The event that triggered this epiphany was a conversation I had the other day with a friend.

Let me pose a question to you. What would you do if you learned you had only a short time to live. Some might say, I would take a trip to some far off place I always wanted to see and leave the debt of the trip for someone else to pay.

There are endless ideas along this theme, but let me add another twist. What if the realization of pending termination only came after you were totally incapacitated and confined to a bed?

A “Bucket List” is worthless if you have no time or physical ability to work off the items on the list. WOW. Does that put into focus how important it is to make the most of each day while you are not limited?

Speaking for me I don’t have any “Bucket List”. I have done many of the things I have wanted to do. I have seen many of the places I want to see. Each new thing I do and each new thing I see is a bonus.

I treasure each photo and story I receive about my children and grandchildren. I enjoy talking to my 97 year old uncle and hearing his new plans for the next week. I enjoy watching Lilliam beaming because she has a new plant flowering.

Things that make life worthwhile don’t have to be grandiose. Sometimes it is the simpler things in life that have the most value.

  • Seeing the beauty of a sunrise or a sunset.
  • Being able to make a child smile.
  • Helping your granddaughter solve an algebra problem.
  • The feeling you get after donating a pint of blood.

OK. You get the idea. While I was struggling with the ever present realization that life is short, and often shorter than we would like for it to be, I wanted to remind everyone else to make the most of today.

NOW might be a good time to call your friends and family and tell them you care about them. They may think you losing your marbles, but the fact is you are just counting your marbles and appreciating each and every one.

If you missed my post on “Life Compared To A Thousand Marbles”, now might be a good time to read it.

It’s Going To Be A Great Day

It is 7:45 – 75 degrees – the sun is shining, and I feel wonderful! I know it is going to be a great day.

I am going to the Fronteria soon, and plan on enjoying the scenery all along the way.

Some days you just get up and say, “WOW – I am happy to be alive!”

Yesterday we got to spend some quality time with a good friend in Potrerillos. I got to have a piece of the most scrumptious pie I have ever had. I found out it was an old secret family recipe and couldn’t get a copy or I would have had to be killed.

No problem, when I need another slice, I will just head to Potrerillos!

It is Saturday and time To reflect on all that is going right. I hope your week has been as wonderful as mine and the next week is even better. I know mine will be!

Enjoy your weekend!

A Most Wonderful Day!

I have to tell you that this is starting off to be a most wonderful day. Besides receiving special greetings from blood family, extended family and friends, I have been greeted with a day that is absolutely gorgeous.

The sun is shinning bright, the birds are singing their heads off, the air is fresh and once again I find myself above ground. As we all know as we grow older, any day above ground is a great day. However, this day better than many.

My wish to you is that you take notice of your day. Realize that we are here for a limited time and time is not to be wasted – especially time with family and loved ones.

It doesn’t have to be a recognized time of expressing affection, such as Father’s Day. All days are days to tell those you care about that you care about them. I often forget that and know that I am luckier than most, so my forgetfulness of more onerous than other’s forgetfulness.

I will consider this another reminder for myself.

Reflecting on a Rainy Day

Have you ever sat back and asked yourself if there was anything you are really missing in your life? You know that special item that would make you complete. I do that often and I am always relieved when I come to the conclusion that I have it all.

Oh, sure I could wish that my kids had more money and in my son’s case better health. However, I would never wish that they had so much money that they would lose the appreciation one gets from the simpler things in life.

I have mentioned this before. I have had more money in the past, but I have never had more happiness. As I sit on my terrace a gentle rain is making circles on the swimming pool. The air is fresh from the cleansing the rain is providing.

I have beautiful music playing on Pandora, my tummy is full and I finished reading the book I just wrote about in a previous post. I think the the book was even improved by the environment in which it was read. There is nothing like reading in a music filled stress free setting.

Even the occasional thunder added to the chemistry of making me think all is right with the world. I wish more people could feel as good as I feel today.

The biggest challenge I am facing is deciding what type of bread to bake tomorrow. I promised I would cook lunch tomorrow, and I think some fresh baked bread will be a welcome addition. I normally bake a Dill Bread recipe, but this time I want something different. Suggestions are welcome.

I will, go by El Rey in the morning and pick up a couple items I am missing. Maybe a little wine will be called for as it will have been a long time since I took on the cooking duty. The wine will will either help celebrate a success or make everyone forget how bad it is.

“…A Jug of Wine, a Loaf of Bread – and Thou Beside me singing in the Wilderness – Oh, Wilderness were Paradise enow!”

Have I told you that it really doesn’t get better than this?

Life is Good!

I spent most of the day yesterday with my headphones on listening to Spotify. The part I enjoyed the most was when I put it on a “Peter, Paul and Mary” setting. All music played from some of the best years of my life.

I got absorbed in the lyrics. When I closed my eyes I could almost picture what I would have been doing when I first heard the tunes.

Periodically I would open my eyes and be brought back to the present. What was interesting was that I realized I am just as happy today as I was then. Older, not necessarily wiser, but surrounded by joys I would not have imagined I would be enjoying at this stage of my life.

The “Proof of Life” post that I did the other day has to be considered a success. I feel the notice has been received and is being discussed, which was my objective in the first place.

It also made me realize how fortunate I am to be enjoying life here in Panama and not back in the US in the rat race that occupied so much of my life. I am living a dream that many in this world never get to live.

I am thankful every day for the influences that persuaded me to investigate retiring here. I am surrounded by positive people. I have the opportunity to still contribute, and never have a boring day. Life is good!

Today I will leave Panama City and I will head back to David. When I open the door I will be greeted by Koki and she will give me a welcome as only she can. I am sure Natalie will be happy to have Lilliam and I return also, but her tail won’t wag as much.

I thought I would drop you this short note before I leave. As you read this, take a few moments and count your own blessings. I think we all have more to be thankful for than we ever acknowledge.

Take another moment and tell those in your life that you are happy that they have chosen to spend this time of your life with you. I don’t do that enough and this reminder is for me as well.

Today is a great day to pass out smiles. They are cheap and are always make others feel better. No doubt you will receive many smiles in return.

Next week I will provide a little more information on my time in Panama City. It just doesn’t get better than this.

Romancing Life

Life, I don’t know if I have told you that I love you and how perfect you are. I really can’t think of any life I would rather have.

You are as near to being a perfect companion as I could have ever imagined.

I wake up in the morning to a rising sun that elicits songs from all of my feathered friends. A sun that never fails to show up and lifts the leaves of all the plants in my garden as it does my spirit.

You provide me the opportunity to enjoy the smell of bacon some mornings, pancakes on others and various other fragrances that continue to make my mouth water and provide memories though out the day.

You have provided me with friends that check on me when I am sick and rejoice with me when I am well.

You have provided me with children and grandchildren that make me proud to say I am a father and a grandfather.

You have provided me the opportunity to learn that adversity is just another way of pointing out what is really important and not important.

You have shown me that a little rain only means that things will bloom brighter tomorrow.

You have provided me the time to understand that all evils and problems can’t be solved or prevented, but that doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t keep trying to improve things.

You have shown me that sharing is better than hoarding and that the more I share the better I feel.

You have shown me that a smile will evoke a smile, that a kind word will open closed minds, and that the language of love and caring requires no translation.

Yes Life, I want to thank you for being my Life. Take me where you will. Use me as you will. Remain with me as long as we a productive together.