Missing My Sole Mate

Today, I spent a lot of time on YouTube playing some of my favorite music, mostly music of the 60s and 70s.

I don’t know why, but I guess that I have had a feeling of melancholy surrounding me for the last month or so. I have received at least four emails, within the last 30 days, telling me that old friends have passed.

Lilliam is in Costa Rica and when she is gone I feel such a void. Natalie is here, but there is never a replacement for one’s sole mate no matter how hard others try.

The emails, Lilliam being away and the music had a dramatic effect on me. Tears streamed down my face and memories flashed through my mind relentlessly.

Beyond the current emails, I began to count other friends that have left all too soon. I doubt if they knew how much they meant to me. Each and everyone left an indelible print on me that will never disappear.

Many of the artists I listened to today occupy another part of my memories. I can hear a song and almost picture where I was and what I was dong when I first heard it.

I think had all of the Peter, Paul, and Mary albums. I was a big fan of the Chad Mitchell Trio. I remember when Chad Mitchell decided to go solo and brought in a unknown replacement by the name of John Denver.

I must have listened to more than 11 hours of YouTube of these artists today.

It seemed that the more I listened the more I was touched by how quickly time passes and how fragile life is. I also realized that the older I get the faster time goes.

As I listened to the music, I picked up my iPad and wrote a poem to remind myself that time is valuable and should not be wasted.

I called it Reminiscing.

5 thoughts on “Missing My Sole Mate

  1. We are alike about that, only that i have never have/had a soul mate or a kind man in my life, I am alone responsible for my 14 years old boy, David still a safe place here I was told to move to an area were the drug dealers are not harming good citizens because they can provide me and my son safety and the administration of the apartment complex can’t or don’t want to do nothing why? i have less than a week to find a place in the middle of the winter, collect more than $1600 dollars for a new place, i can complain to the authorities because they are the authorities the drug dealers rocking the place. Time is valuable specially now for me. i left panama due to the tyrant Manuel A. Noriega, only to find out that there is a more tyrant and dangerous enemy to society the drugs Lords.
    I scream in tears for help, is bitter cold here and for my safety since I am against drugs, i have to go,or maybe be hurt. Money is power and i don’t have that amount or anyone that can help us.
    Don’t worried about age, good weather, friends, fun and family will see you lie for ever, just be thankful that you can have what i never had a soul mate and support for good or bad, I am terrified trying to sleep and the ex-american dream is gone only anxiety for what i remember from Panama, and the excruciating pain to find money to move, i am afraid for our safety.
    be merry, be safe, enjoy your life and the stress free air of Boquete and his friendly people will do the rest. Peace, pray for me and my boy.

  2. Beautiful piece Don. As a man of 70+ years and one who has found my soul mate here about 4 years ago, I know exactly where you are coming from. Even though my Jenny never goes away and leaves me alone, I still miss her when she goes to the market or is doing things around the Finca. She is many years my junior and I am very grateful for her as she has given me a reason to live and be happy again.

    All I can say is that we are 2 very lucky guys who have found their soul mates late in life. Lets enjoy them and be happy for what we have.

  3. Don,
    Great article…being a 64 year old I can relate…..listen to the utube “These are days of our lives” by Freddy Mercury of Queen just before he died….may bring another tear to your eyes but very well done…

  4. I know how you feel about your Lilliam. I am so lucky that I found my soul mate 25 years ago. You are right about how fast time goes by but we will always have our memories.

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